During the last 3 weeks I fell for you, I don’t know when, I don’t know how, but I did. I don’t remember letting you in, I don’t remember allowing myself to feel something.
You showed me that kings do exist, you showed me respect, honesty, love without it being accompanied by pride, ego, jealousy, possessiveness.
You made me expose a side of me that I have hidden so well from the world and yet u still wanted me.
You showed me exactly what unconditional love is and you gave me hope.
I can’t stop thinking of you, you constantly on my mind, day in and day out, I go to bed talking to you and I wake up with you saying something sweet. I can’t get you out of my head and now you affecting my heart and I’m not too sure if I honestly want you out of either place.
After meeting you I can honestly say I don’t think of the hurt and tears I cried for all the losers I had in my life. Somewhere during our magically moments with each other you wiped away all that hurt and made me realise that some-one can love me for me.
I became vulnerable in front of you, yet you never used my weaknesses against me, you encouraged me, gave me hope and made me laugh during the times I thought my life’s countdown had begun.
Why did I have to meet you now, this cross road is cutting me deep and what was supposed to be a fling of sorts ended up to be something special, treasured and something I don’t think either of us will forget. I will never forget our stolen moments and I will never forget the first time you kissed me(and yes i did make you break your gentleman rule). You stirred up something inside of me that would melt chocolate with just one touch.
I tried not to feel for you, I told myself that I’m crazy, I told myself everything I could but I guess it was just lip service cos you know that my heart and head tells me something else.
We broke all the rules and yet I don’t feel guilty cos I get to take away something that means more to me than all the wealth of the world.
I feel like I lost my best friend, a part of me last night, I thought I was imagining it, but this feeling swept over me today and it still follows me. I feel lost, yet I’m not angry or jealous, I’m just incredibly sad. Even though we knew each other for a few weeks it felt like I known you my entire life.
You the best thing that happened to me in a very long time and
It’s now time to say goodbye.
Natasha